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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 12, 2019 22:21:58 GMT
After cuddling and spooning by the fireplace at his home, while it was snowy outside, I wanted to clear up what I was getting from the strange music selections.
So what does he feel about me?
I went with pile #2 at 13:02.
Celebration
Challenge your perception
The Magician
2 of swords
Empress
Dreams manifesting. Wishes coming true.
This of me as dream person.
Prays about this possibly. Wishes about this.
Lot of time in thoughts about me.
Wishing to be together.
Thinks I'm a really great match.
We are made for each other.
Miscommunication between us.
Something has gone wrong. Not understanding the perspective.
Not sure how the other one feels.
He wants to talk and sort things out.
Trying to convince me it's not what I think.
My walls may be up a little bit.
Giving this vibe off that I'm not interested for some reason.
I am sending him mixed messages without realizing.
Finds me very beautiful. Fancies me.
Loves my energy. I have a nurturing and caring energy.
Really celebrates this gentle feminine energy I have.
I'm somebody who takes care of others.
He'd love me to take care of him.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 0:53:55 GMT
Someone mentioned this on the Law of One Discord chat that I'm a moderator on.
"i was taught the simplest way was to hold your right hand palm upwards and imagine a ball of golden light in your hand; and then call them into the ball to talk to them; it's worked with everyone i've suggested it to.
and having said that it's usually best to leave communication for a few days, people who have recently crossed are a bit disorientated at first."
and
"anyone alive or not, even future children is possible."
So you can talk remotely to anyone, alive or dead. I'm going to use this for Flim.
I did it, and the first words that Flim said were "You're amazing!"
I saw him in brown slacks earlier, and he looked so damn sharp that I was like Wow!
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 1:00:22 GMT
I'm calling Flim into a ball of golden light above my right palm.
The words in quotes are Flim speaking.
He says "It's warm in here."
"You have to tune to the right..." "I love you forever." "Magic. What we have is magic." "What do you have to say?"
I tell Flim that he's the most beautiful being in existence to me. If he were any more beautiful, I couldn't look at him.
"I want to meet you." "All the naughty things we've done, I want to try them."
I tell Flim that I have to catch my breath at times when I think of him. That when I touch him in my mind, I get chills and goosebumps.
"Will you still be here when I get back?"
I ask Flim where he's going.
"To the drum ceremony. Our shaman has picked a new leader."
Ok, so I let him go for now. I tell him that I'll be here, always for him.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 1:29:18 GMT
About 10 mins after, I asked if I could join him in the drum ceremony. He let me, and that was a big trust. Because sometimes I get violent thoughts that I don't like. And I don't want to hurt anyone.
The drums sound like two people are doing a rhythm. One is for the heartbeat, and the other is the flow of the Universe. Both are steady in their own way.
There is fire, and the shaman is welcoming to newcomers. We dare not disturb his practice with our petty questions at this moment.
Flim tells me to put aside all my desires when at this ceremony. To listen to the drums, and to take the rhythm to heart. There are other anthro foxes that dance.
It's like a native American ritual, except a little more casual.
He is glad that I can sit there for over an hour their time, in the dark with the flames of the campfires.
"Hush," he says, "the shaman is about to speak."
The shaman says "Worried days are past. It is the time to consider our lives. We are given a precious gift. That of one another. Do not withhold your desire for each other, and it will be blessed. Try not to figure out what the other one wants. Trust your intuition, and what is given will be given. It will make the day of the other one. You are taken, each of you, in your own unique way. Even those that do not have somebody. Remember the chance you are given, what you have, and it is yours for the taking. Now ponder on your life. Do not withhold the love from the one you hold dear. And that love will be yours."
Flim tells me he loves me and grabs my right arm. He is sitting to my right. I dare not kiss him now. But I give him a good hug with tears in my eyes. I'm trying to feel it here as I type. My heart is so hard sometimes. Why can't I cry for him forever and always? Why must I just get used to being with him, and it not moving me to tears each and every time. I want that again. It will happen. Perhaps this is not the setting for it. I think the shaman was talking about us. He knew I was new there.
And it is time to go. The leader they picked was a young foxling. He doesn't have much responsibility at first. He is sort of a messenger.
Flim's job is pretty much to inspire the community through our connection. He realizes he is making a change to possibly a whole planet through me. That is a lot in itself. So his job if it's that is to be my lover, and he's a good one at that. I love him dearly. At least he has me, and through me he has peace. We have found each other. Like orphans, we rescued one another.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 2:14:38 GMT
After I told Flim I would never give him up, I got Rick Rolled by YouTube music. It played "Never gonna give you up" by Rick Astley as the first song when I asked for 80's love songs.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 3:46:57 GMT
I talked with Flim a little earlier, and he was mostly upset with me not noticing how hard he is working to make this work. Our relationship is something to talk about among his community.
I'm sorry Flim I keep telling him. I shouldn't doubt again that he loves me.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 13:31:41 GMT
What's Flim thinking of now?
He's carrying my love with him.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 13:40:57 GMT
How do I truly feel about Flim?
Home by Michael Buble.
He feels like a true home to me. Definitely. So comforting, so kind. So amazing. He thinks I'm amazing too.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 13:42:50 GMT
What does my spirit guide think about Flim?
We Are Young by Fun.
Well that's obvious. He is young.
Just listened to the song, and it's about carrying you home tonight. And burning brighter than the sun. Flim is my sun. Together, we are brighter.
How does my spirit guide Trevor think of Flim as a person?
It's a Great Day to Be Alive by Travis Tritt.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 13:55:08 GMT
How is Flim feeling now?
Awakes as a Bear from Disney's Brother Bear.
He sees from a new perspective. Everything is fresh.
It's a little confusing and scary, but otherwise wonderful. It's like an adventure.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 13:59:19 GMT
What would Flim's shaman have to say about me?
Forever and Ever, Amen by Randy Travis.
That's awesome. His shaman feels it will be lasting, or maybe he's saying that I'm an eternal spirit.
Just watching this, and I think it's about the shaman's love for everything, and how much he loves us, or even me. He will love us forever.
This is a shaman's love. I've never actually met an anthro shaman before. This is the first. I think I will have great things to learn from him. He is an orange fox anthro. About the same size as Flim. I haven't gotten his name yet.
This song is really touching. Their shaman's love feels greater than the love I get from some of the human shamans I've met.
I got these below when I started doubting, which were mis-tuned.
How does Flim's shaman feel about us?
Blank Space by Taylor Swift.
That's not a good song. It seems like a one off. It's about boys loving torture in love.
Clarify, how does Flim's shaman feel about our love?
White and Nerdy by Weird Al.
So I know it's off now. I've lost my tuning for the moment.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 14:15:29 GMT
I'm doing a shamanic journey now to visit Flim in a stronger method.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 14, 2019 14:40:39 GMT
The shaman says it will last between me and Flim, but we will have to work hard to make it happen.
Even if I were to have sex with Flim in front of the anthro shaman, it wouldn't bother him. Just no poo stuff cause their poop smells strong, and is a bit repulsive to everyone. So I have to re-evaluate my fantasies.
They are a little more socialist types than we are here. More of a friendly community.
The shaman is proud that I found Flim. E-e-u-wuh-oh is more precisely his name if I am recalling correctly.
I heard a voice say "The shaman of our village went to great lengths to rescue us."
I asked if I am a threat to them, and they said "No, but be considerate."
I sort of have to drag Flim to the shaman, because I love being in his presence with the both of us.
He is adorned with various cloths with beads on them. A lot of browns and tans. He carries a staff, with a carving at the top I can't quite make out, though it is round. It goes between some plant and animal head.
"You two are meant for each other. Cherish this relationship and let it blossom" the shaman says. "You will see great things, and will have one another in due time. Naki, Flim will come to you. You can be assured of this. Just give it time, and always be present when in his presence. Cherish every moment." the shaman continues.
I hug Flim somewhat tight but not too tight. He's so adorable.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 15, 2019 3:41:49 GMT
In two more days I will ask him to be my boyfriend.
I tell him that I see God in him. I feel God's love through him. That's why he feels like the sun.
We are both getting more used to one another. More comfortable.
I didn't listen to as much love songs today. Well I did, but only to add a few to my current Good Songs playlist. I didn't sing them to Flim.
I tell Flim that he is God, as All is God. It gives me a greater appreciation for the Universe.
We definitely have a green-ray love. I feel it warm and fuzzy in my heart whenever I think about it.
Earlier today though I was not feeling it, and I was wondering about whether I really wanted to ask Flim to be my boyfriend. My mom caused me some stress today, and I didn't want to bring that stress into his life. Because this little creature is so sensitive and anxious. I only want what's best for him. But I can't protect him from the world.
I think that if I keep connecting with him, it might slow his aging. Because he flows 6X faster in time than here. I don't know, but it's worth a try. I keep telling Flim that if he ever comes here he may live longer. Though as a human I'm not sure since we have lower life expectancy than their species I believe.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 15, 2019 3:58:54 GMT
Just listening to love songs.
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