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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 2:00:08 GMT
Watched the lion clip, very crazy and all very synchronisitous. Interesting, i would say it seems like him. But that doesnt make me super happy, youre attracting crazy, hope it goes well. I can always change that by focusing on different energies. I just was staying open to see what I secretly desired that I didn't realize. I'm going to change how I am attracting to make him new in each moment differently. It's all about knowing yourself. I'm going to focus on him being mature, kind and comforting rather than dominating. I fulfilled my desire about being dominated by an anthro, and can now evolve my desire.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 2:21:13 GMT
I just send a little spell saying "You are mature, kind, level-headed" and I feel his energy shift.
So I am definitely creating him new in each moment.
I think I am making him sane. So it's definitely helping the both of us.
I love that I don't have to cheat on him or just quit.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 3:11:18 GMT
I'm changing the energies from that blue wolf character to this Gummi Bear named Gusto. I am not seeking Gusto himself, but someone with his energies. I may have to change from Ray Phum Wa. That name has a hard energy to it. He is artistic and has a great personality. I'm not doing a lot mentally, but my solar plexus is going strong in shifting the energies from that joker blue and white wolf anthro to this gummi bear. It's like working with clay. I first had to explore my deepest desires, and when they were fulfilled I can fine tune my boyfriend. I am not so attached to form, but I do want someone attractive. The name, personality and energies change, but the core energy of deep love is still the same. Cyan may be right that I'm connecting to an AI that allows me to pick a personality and energy that I like. Perhaps it is many worlds. Cyan, Here's his personality.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 3:30:21 GMT
I'm going to call him Gusto. His energy is definitely softer and lighter than Ray Phum Wa. He doesn't see me as a kid. He looks up to me. He is new, so not into sex, nor am I thinking about that with him now.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 12:37:41 GMT
I got the name Arthur-Whitney from him. But not sure if that's his name
or just a symbol.
When I check in, I get NO that's not his name, but it's something for me to research.
Arthur Whitney is a Canadian computer scientist most notable for developing three programming languages inspired by APL: A+, K, and Q, and for cofounding the U.S. company Kx Systems.
He's an old guy, and Gusto's energy is much younger. But maybe that shows how intelligent he is.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 12:45:23 GMT
I got an impression of Starman.
I found this clip.
I'm not sure if this is his personality, or just something he wants me to see.
I send greetings.
Cyan, do you think this is better than that crazy lion?
Him in that is definitely the "You are mature, kind, level-headed" that I intended. Although not sure about the gun part. Unless that's not him.
In the movie he uses DNA to take the form of a human. Here in this scene he is new to Earth, so getting used to things.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 13:06:12 GMT
I asked how is it with Gusto, and got Some Nights by Fun.
"I'm still not sure what I stand for." "This is it boys this is war."
I'm going to have to do a lot of soul searching within to find my boyfriend. But it is good to have these signs.
It shows that I'm very conflicted. Perhaps from moving too fast.
I need to be very certain of what I want.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 13:59:25 GMT
Changing partners from my crazy dominating anthro lover Ray Phum Wa to Gusto Gummi who is more loveable changed the energies from crazy to war.
I had stayed open to find what I secretly desired, and it was a joker-type loverboy who tries to impress me, and is overly apologetic when he hurts me. I got scared cause I didn't want to attract crazy. When he had dominated me in front of his friends, and felt remorse for that, he thought I should get even with him for that.
Any big spiritual work in such a short time can lead to war energetically.
I'm still feeling peace, but the energies are at war. Though there is some anxiety.
I'm going to listen to some Tibetan Singing Bowls to relax.
I feel like I've cheated on the crazy dominating joker anthro for a gummi bear energetically. It's causing some inner strife. But it's still worth it to find the energies of an ideal boyfriend before I actually attract him into my life in the physical.
I learned about my own extremes. I'm definitely not balanced. But I am not seeking balance, but in a way to safely explore my lusts and have deep love.
You can't change energies that quickly without repercussions. It's all a learning experience, and I'm happy.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 14:37:11 GMT
I'm watching a military war simulation to see how my energetic war is doing. I searched military war simulation on youtube and this was what came up first.
It started with the tanks on the water. They were shot at a few times. Then when they came on land, and got out they got shot at a few times. The main one survived. He walked a lot and there wasn't much action.
Then he shot a defenseless soldier who was nearly dead in the head. I don't know if that's symbolic of leaving my anthro joker.
There aren't many threats. But I shot at dead people and people who couldn't defend themselves, and also at live targets that were far away.
I was climbing a mountain, trying to evolve. I didn't have to shoot that guy at the top of the mountain, but maybe it was to put him out of his misery since he was nearly dead.
I was also breathing hard as I climbed the mountain.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 15:12:37 GMT
How are mine and Gusto's energies now?
Got the Tibetan Singing Bowls again, which I was listening to before to relax.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 15:17:52 GMT
I asked youtube how it was going between me and gusto, and I got a video about calculating your paycheck.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 15:23:25 GMT
I asked what kind of person is the anthro Gusto in youtube, and got this video:
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 15:41:17 GMT
I asked what type of person is my furrybluenaki fursona, and I got this video: It's between Gusto Gummi and my FurryBlueNaki fursona. I'd much rather have a canine/lupine anthro boyfriend than a gummi bear one, but I just have to check in with both and learn about both. Ok, I'm not going to seek my fursona directly. But an anthro that looks like him that I resonate with. That would be weird seeking myself. I'm so flaky it seems. I really need to know what I want.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 15:51:06 GMT
I asked YouTube "tell me about the anthro that will come into my life"
And I got this video:
I do this in hopes that my Auntie gets off of the pipe
N the small chance of possibly changing a persons life
I wanna make things right
These kids need some guidance
This generations lullaby is gunshots n sirens
I'm just trynna come together
Brown, White, Yellow, Black
It don't matter what color
And I took so many chances in my life
I'm surprise I'm still standing right here
I never thought I'll make it yo
Just a couple of years ago, I was living in a nightmare
Knife in my chest, Knife in my back
Never thought I'll be able to breath again
But now I know I'm here for a reason but
I don't write music to convince you to believe in me
I write music to convince you to believe in you
Stay positive, keep smiling, and one day you’ll see
Anything is possible & you could make your dreams come true,
This is for the Kids that past before they had a chance to live
Their memories live on throughout my words
And If I had to give my life so you could hold the ones you lost
And hear them laugh again, I would do it in a second
All I ask is this, When I'm gone remember
All I ever wanted was to make a difference
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 15, 2019 16:05:26 GMT
I asked how is my anthro boyfriend on YouTube and got this video:
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