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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 19, 2019 18:52:46 GMT
I appreciate you Flim. You and Loki help give my life meaning. I am content. Thank you for pointing out how I should grow. It's not all lovey-dovey. I do have bad days. And I need to accept you as you are rather than trying to change you or make you "better". I need to be vulnerable with Flim, and he with me. But there is no "need to". We both should get to where we want the best for each other, while taking care of ourselves.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 19, 2019 19:03:00 GMT
Flim's shadow is like pulling the whiskers off a cat.
Ray Phum Wa my ex's shadow was like watching people burning to death in a building and doing nothing.
But these are shadows, not something they actively do.
One sounds darker, but I accept them even with their shadow side. These are just what they showed me though.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 19, 2019 19:15:16 GMT
Though he's 15 in his years, he says I should have him drawn as an 18-year-old anthro because he looks closer to that. They are adults at 12. And age of maturity at 20. Also if I say I'm in a relationship with him, it would be better to make him 18 in drawings. Nothing yiffy though till he turns 20 in 10 months. And that's if it comes to that.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 19, 2019 21:20:27 GMT
I need to remember this.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 19, 2019 22:26:09 GMT
He's showing me more of himself. I can feel the angsty love more clearly. I feel like he needs healing, but it's up to him. I don't want him to be like this forever. Unless that's just alien love, and I'm feeling it differently. I'd like to hope that his love won't feel like that all the time.
He's the most compatible anthro, so his love should resonate well with me, not feel mildly uncomfortable.
There, some of the angst just went away, and it's now a bubble that resists my field slightly. I'm working to integrate him. It's very smooth with little discomfort now.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 20, 2019 1:02:46 GMT
How can I cheer up Flim?
He Lives in You from Lion King 2
"Have faith." "The voice of a child."
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 20, 2019 1:06:26 GMT
How much does Flim trust me?
Smile by Avril Lavigne
He smiles at me. And I smile back.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 20, 2019 22:18:13 GMT
What does Flim think about me wanting to become an anthro? Bad Day by Daniel Powter
If I focus on Flim more, would he be ok with me becoming an anthro? Annie's Song
Yes. I would fill up his senses.
Does Flim like when I sing love songs to him? Never Ending Story
How can I make Flim happy? Pour Some Sugar On Me by Def Leppard
Clarify, what does Flim think about me becoming an anthro by the Logos?
The Power of Love by Huey Lewis
Give me a song that Flim would like to share.
Photograph by Nickelback
He's my 30-pound fox baby little sweet sweet.
He worries that life might get hard for me if I transform, but that our love would be much more profound.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 20, 2019 22:30:07 GMT
Give me a song to sing to Flim Keep Me in Mind by Zac Brown Band
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 21, 2019 11:11:58 GMT
Woke up and the bottle which was covering the Tails image I have on my computer was no longer over even 1/2 of him like before. The sticker that covered his genitals was moved with the bottle. So this means I take it that he no longer feels cut off or bottled up. He feels freer. Though he is more sexually open with me, I'm still waiting to give it time. I think he understands that.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 21, 2019 16:26:47 GMT
How is Flim feeling right now?
WKRP in Cincinnati He's afraid that I'm forgetting him and moving on.
Does Flim know that I love him very much?
Thong Song He's thinking sexually of me and that I won't reciprocate.
What does Flim think of me now?
The Beaches of Cheyenne by Garth Brooks
I think he feels I am distant to him.
I need to work on getting closer.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 21, 2019 17:03:13 GMT
How does Flim feel after our talk?
Nobody in His Right Mind Would've Left Her
Clarify, is Flim doing ok?
Let it Be by the Beatles
It seems to be getting inaccurate since I'm adding more songs. We had an encouraging talk, and the song that comes up was about leaving somebody and not being in the right mind.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 21, 2019 17:04:06 GMT
How am I doing mentally?
Downtown Train by Rod Stewart
Could be better but not bad.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 22, 2019 4:26:41 GMT
I was just able to catch the smell of Flim on my fingers. After a few moments, it went away. It didn't smell human, nor like the fox urine I smelled as a kid. A little spicier than human scent. Stinky in a way, but to me, very pleasing. And though it wasn't strong, it was somewhat pungent for its strength. It only lasted for like a minute or two and now I don't smell anything on the fingers. I think that was an amazing step because he wanted me to know what he smells like. Not as bad ammonia like fox urine was. More salty as I can tell. But more complex and varied than my own scent. I guess you could say it smells almost like fox urine without the ammonia, but different enough to where it makes my mouth water.
Earlier today I had a hankering for a fish sandwich at Jack in the Box, instead of a regular burger. And Flim likes to eat fish, so I think I was picking up on that. I didn't connect the two until I had already ate like half my meal. It's amazing how he's showing himself to me.
He does have some anxiety about my last relationship and how I left Ray Phum Wa. At the same time, he does have some suggestive and sexual advances/desires that I tell him I'm holding off with.
He also is not eager as the last anthro was to come here like their astronaut program. So I may never meet him in real life. But that's ok. I still love him because he does these little things that let me know he cares. I miss him though I haven't met him yet. He knows how important smelling is to me, and that's great. We meet often, daily, throughout the day in the astral.
He's just getting used to me giving him hugs. Before when I'd give him a hug it would feel like it lasted up to an hour for him and he got antsy. But he's learning to allow me to cuddle. He was quite restless before.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Jul 22, 2019 7:14:07 GMT
Here's a picture of Flim from My Little Pony. My Flim is a yellow fox anthro. They happen to be about the same color. My Flim also wears shorts that are red and white striped, like the tail of Flim from MLP.
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