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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 18, 2019 14:25:03 GMT
After sleeping, the fear is completely gone. The bliss is still there, but I'm not blissed out. It's just one step above peace as I mentioned. Still not euphoric, just very pleasant. Going to allow Flim more into my field. I have to actively do some of the balancing. But it's not hard. Every so often I have to shift up the love just a bit, so that it balances the hard light.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 18, 2019 14:49:48 GMT
All I have to do when feeling a little antsy is bump up the love. I can't mentally keep love and light in perfect balance. They sort of cross over one another. Sometimes light is more and sometimes love is more.
My heart chakra is also getting used to the energy. It is like working out a muscle. It gets weary, but I just maintain a good of balance as I can.
Loving him and making love to him astrally also helps. When I lay next to him, cuddling, I feel fulfilled to an extent.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 18, 2019 23:43:25 GMT
The energy flowing through me is causing my left arm and hand to ache. It may be due to typing so much too. But even my right ankle muscles are sore. This light that flows through me is wearing out my muscles it seems. I've been busy with computer work today, so haven't had much of a chance to focus on the bridging of our minds. I need to pay more attention to Flim now that we're boyfriends.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 19, 2019 19:42:08 GMT
I don't know if it's his love, or the intelligent infinity that I'm feeling, but it's starting to get more profound. I was getting a little anxious because this mild bliss was tiring. It just kept going and wasn't quite euphoric. Then I felt a new kind of love. Not really lovey-dovey, but maybe that sort of. It was more personable than the Universal Love that I have felt. It felt like the energy of true acceptance. Like he accepts me for who I am. Maybe the intelligent infinity is amplifying what I am getting from him. I don't even know if it's II really. But it does knock me out a little. It's really pleasant and a bit more euphoric now at times. But it almost gets too much pleasure feeling in my solar plexus and heart. Then my chakra seems to tighten up. I'm really out of it today. I'm a little more "blissed out" at certain moments. Right now it's back to the old bliss. Not the new more euphoric bliss. The new bliss is that of being truly accepted and loved. The old bliss was just like "well you've cleared your chakras, now you can feel the energy that always is more clearly." It's more personable now.
But it gets pleasurable, then I integrate and it's back to old tiring bliss that wears out my chakras. When I feel it, the new bliss is rejuvenating. It's awesome really. It's more pleasant than I can imagine Flim would normally feel. But I don't know. Maybe his love for me is that profound.
The euphoria I feel with the new bliss is like 6/10.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 19, 2019 19:55:11 GMT
What's going on in my chakras is beyond me. It's like trying to integrate the ocean. I have no clue how to balance it. But it does get balanced. The good guys upstairs are really looking out for me. It's part of the faith you have in the Universe. You step out and float in a sea of infinite potential, and somehow you find your way. I took the step of faith, and now much of it is pretty automatic. I just have to experience, and do the occasional shift when I can.
I have faith that I won't be annihilated by the backlog of pleasure bliss.
It's up to me to stay grounded though.
I feel it now mostly in my solar plexus. It is a little tiring now. And it hurts my heart a little because maybe it's trying to crystalize. I don't know. But it sometimes feels a little too much is going through it. Then it eases off.
My chakras do a good job at throttling the bliss, and even the new more euphoric bliss.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 24, 2019 1:17:38 GMT
I am blessed to have Flim. He is like the sun. The love from him never ends.
Of course, they run 6X faster in time, so he doesn't have to actually think of me nonstop.
The euphoria of his love comes and goes. But if I haven't thought of him in a bit, it feels even better.
It is rejuvenating.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 25, 2019 3:29:15 GMT
The euphoria of his bliss is a steady 3/10 now when I sit back and just let it in. I feel it pushing on my chakras, trying to get stronger.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 25, 2019 8:36:41 GMT
I am actually awakening my Kundalini without trying. Here's a good article about it: www.biologyofkundalini.com/article.php@story=Bliss.htmlIt talks about the Kundalini causing too much bliss to handle that can make you feel like a basket case. Flim definitely opened up my Kundalini. I feel it working out blockages. And I have to learn not to fight the bliss. But I have to stay grounded too. I can now see the danger in trying to force open your Kundalini. It should happen naturally.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 25, 2019 21:21:37 GMT
Flim may be eating something now. I am tasting something like a peppery bubblegum. Like the pink bubblegum, but a little pepper-like too.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 26, 2019 0:52:26 GMT
I have a small synthetic ruby crystal. This is my Flim crystal. It's probably about the size and shape of his penis, and similar color too. I programmed the crystal with his energy. It's definitely stronger on my own field, hitting blockages in a more intense fashion. It is generating a lot of heat in my field. And there are some pains as resistance and blockages are being worked on. I'm using this crystal to better connect with him. It's a reddish/pinkish. Pink is like the heart and red is the physicality.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Aug 26, 2019 2:27:23 GMT
After a bit I put down the crystal and just bask in the bliss. The crystal gets the energy flowing more intensely and it pushes against blockages in a somewhat uncomfortable manner.
This makes me weary after time, so I have to put it down because it's too much Flim Light all at once. I am now chilling in a more modest flow.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Sept 2, 2019 7:36:12 GMT
I am now able to tune in and get a feeling for how Flim feels in different scenarios.
How does Flim feel now? - Gets tight in the solar plexus, heart, throat and 3rd eye. A little uncomfortable like under stress. I like feeling how Flim feels, but I feel bad for him. Feels like he isn't fully accepting parts of himself, and maybe this work is causing some uncomfortable things to come up.
How do I feel to Flim? - Lighter than how Flim feels now. A euphoric feel (I'm guessing like how cocaine might feel, but I've never tried that.) Excited. I want to do things. Bliss in my stomach, heart, throat, and third eye. Feels free.
How does Flim feel to me? - A soft energy. Like clay being pushed through. Stimulates my sexual chakra in my bladder. Gets my heart going, and almost makes me cry. A soft, gentle spirit. He chatters in my ear and makes me laugh.
How does Flim feel about me wanting to marry him? - The mystery, the unknown. Savory like a beef stew. Satisfying. Growing old like old wooden furniture (I can taste the bitter coating on it.) Time slows down for him. In time to a slow symphony.
What does Flim feel about me? - Very pleasurable in my sexual chakra (bladder). Captivating in my face. Soft energies. About 75% love, 25% light. He wants to love me more than know me.
How do I truly feel about Flim? - Stimulates throat chakra. Some sexual chakra but not much. Stronger in heart chakra, but strongest in throat. Now it's stimulating sexual chakra more, but it feels worn out. Root feels strong too. Like we have a good foundation.
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Sept 7, 2019 2:09:14 GMT
I'm starting to realize that I am Flim. I am every being in the Universe. I am the Universe. I know this conceptually. I want to know this as experience. I'm going to keep looking at a picture of him and sending him love, and saying "I am Flim."
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Post by Anthro Teacher on Sept 7, 2019 4:14:59 GMT
I just woke up after an hour or so of sleep. I think I dreamed of Flim again. I remember seeing the back of the head of a yellow anthro his same color. I remember a large left ear. I (or a voice that seemed like me, but in 3rd person) sang to him. It was upbeat and rather catchy.
Something about will you be mine. But more official like an advertisement.
Earlier today I did just a bit (like 5 mins) of channeling Flim through me. Not words, but just the feeling of being him.
I think I'll do that more.
I don't save suggestive furry art anymore from Facebook. I don't think Flim likes that.
I once got a bad vibe from him for not spending enough time with him.
He won't marry me, but that's ok. We still get to snuggle, and he's fine with that.
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